Free Sad Type Beat - "Back Stab" | Rap Instrumental 2020 |

người đầu tiên mà tui muốn nhắc là anh hơi mập và chạy wave dọn
giữa 70kg và anh thì anh là người mà tui hay chọn
hớt cái đầu có 1 nhúm tưởng mái người ta nhà xây nhọn
muốn mặc đồ central cee nhưng mà tướng thì không ôm gọn
là anh đó
mang cái tên võ tuấn kiệt
nhà ngay khu p6 nghe một phát đúng thiệt
đúng thiệt là …cũng được cái tính thì hay rề rề
nhưng mà tui thông cảm tại bụng bự thì hay lề mề
măc cái quần ôm gót thì bị thằng nhân viên nó cười
lúc đó cũng quê nhưng mà thật sự thì tui cũng cười
lên bài nhạc thì tui mới nói lúc đó ông chủ người ta cũng cười
và cái tết mặc quần ôm gót cả shop nhà thì ai cũng cười
nói tới đây thì cũng đã hieu rồi ha
“ mặc cái quần đó chi cho người ta cừ zị cha “
nói tới ảnh là ảnh giận rồi la
mặc cái quần chi cho ta cười zị cha

và tiếp theo là tới thằng bin nà
tới khúc hay rồi cậu subin à
nghe xong thì đừng có điên nha
đi chơi mà đòi về sớm thì mày là chuyên gia
đi chơi có mấy bữa tết mà đòi đi dìa quài
trong khi người ta bỏ hết quan hệ ở rìa ngoài
mảng miếng của mày mày tưởng là đề tài
nếu mà không có tao thì mày rớt miếng trong nhiều ngày
tao chỉ muốn nhắc cho mày nhớ cái lông đầu của mày là do ai
delay về tiền bạc có vài ngày có phải là tao sai ?
bộ đồ tao chưa mặc cho mày mượn chứ tao cho ai
mà nói như cái kiểu là bản thân của tao đây đang sai
hôm tao không diss thì tao không phải con người nữa
mày về hết 3 tuần mà đi chơi chưa tới được mười bữa
cái ụ ẹ mày đi ra hà nội ở luôn đi
đừng có về cà mau nói mấy câu iu thương chi

I ain't trying to go but I really got me drinking cuz everything in my mind cuz you're making me want to hit the quake hit it like a butt into my head and I'm already dead cuz I look like it and take it fake Love lyrics she said that you love me and I want Frozen red and you really love me cuz I don't love you I'm trying to be like this but it's not just because you really see me I'm your baby I am a one please take me baby one on

This is 4 notti osama

Анх хараад дурласан, сэтгэл дотроо тээжээ
Чамайг гэсэн залуучуудыг ардаа хийсэн
Танхил охин минь
Чинийхээ сонголтыг хүндэлнэ ээ
Анх хараад дурласан, сэтгэл дотроо хэдийн тээжээ
Гитарны аялгуу минь
Чамдаа дэндүү уусжээ
Зохиолын минь нэг чи билээУучил даа, хайрт минь, би чамайг зөндөө хүлээсэн
Урсгал ус шиг хугацааг ганцаараа би туулсан
Гитараа дахиад хүрэхэд чиний минь төрх харагдана
Гэхдээ чиний сонголтыг би зүрхэндээ хүндэтгэн үлдэнэ...дотроо үргэлж бат боддог.
​Ээж ээ, хэрвээ амьдралд нь хэцүү зүйл тохиолдвол, эсвэл хүүдээ гомдсон уурласан зүйл байвал уураа гаргаад хүү рүүгээ заавал залгаарай. Таныгаа загнасан ч, уурласан ч хамаагүй дууг нь сонсох хүүд нь хамгийн гоё байдаг шүү.
​Миний минь ээж, миний нандин шүтээн та минь үргэлж эрүүл энх, инээмсэглэж яваарай. Хүү нь таныгаа хэзээ ч гомдоохгүй ээ, тандаа маш их хайртай шүү.
​Танд хайртай хүүгээс нь...Миний минь ээждээ,
​Ээж ээ, хүү нь тандаа энэ захидлыг бичиж байна. Заримдаа хүү нь таныгаа гомдоож, уурыг чинь барж байсан үе байдаг ч зүрхэндээ таныгаа үргэлж хамгийн ихээр хайрлаж, хүндэлж явдаг шүү.
​Таны хүү чинь одоо том болж байгаа. Амьдралын урт замд "ган угалз" шиг хатуужиж, хүчирхэг болж өсөх болохоор хүүдээ огт санаа зовох хэрэггүй ээ. Хүү нь заавал хүний зэрэгт хүрч, таныгаа насан туршид нь жаргаана г

I got you (⁠T⁠T⁠). Here’s an original sad rap you can use for your mom. Keep it real with her:

"Voicemail To Heaven"
Verse 1
Yeah, I’m writing this verse with tears on the pad,
Thinking 'bout the times I had, now the good feels bad.
Kitchen light at 2AM, you’d wait up when I was late,
Now I’m talking to the ceiling, asking God to translate.
Your hugs were armor when the world threw shots,
Now I’m out here fighting battles with an empty spot.
Mama, I remember your hands, tired but strong,
You gave me everything, even when we had nothing all along.

Hook
If heaven got a phone, I hope you pick up,
Tell me that you’re proud, that’ll fill my cup.
Mama, I’m lost down here, it’s hard to stand up,
Every day without you, feels like bad luck.
If heaven got a phone, just ring me once,
Let me say "I love you" before the beat’s done.

Verse 2
Photo on the dresser, dust can’t hide your smile,
I walk past it daily, but it hurts me every mile.
You taught me how to be a man, but not how to grieve,
Now the student’s missing lessons only you could teach.
I see you in my habits, in the way I make my bed,
In the prayers I whisper when I’m lying half-dead.
Life’s a cold mixtape and you were the warmest track,
Now the song skips every time I play it back.

Hook
If heaven got a phone, I hope you pick up,
Tell me that you’re proud, that’ll fill my cup.
Mama, I’m lost down here, it’s hard to stand up,
Every day without you, feels like bad luck.
If heaven got a phone, just ring me once,
Let me say "I love you" before the beat’s done.

Outro
So until we meet again, I’ll keep your name in bars,
Writing you into verses, painting you in stars.
Rest easy, Mama... this one’s yours.

Want me to tweak it? I can make it shorter, add her name, or change the vibe. Sending you strength right now.

👍

Yo my whole life bro yeah it’s mad yeah it’s fucked man all I’ve ever wanted yh is just to be loved now I roll around the streets wid my mask and my gloves man I miss my auntie tez you always showed me that love now your a bird in the sky your a little white dove flying high in the sky yeah your flying up above yes I’ll give you all my heart yeah I’ll give you all my love yeah I’m doing this shit it’s for you , it’s for us now I’m blazing that spliff smoke going to the air this the whole reason I got put into care yh I lived with my dad yh my mum was never there I just wanna go back man this shit ain’t fair remember when my mum curled up my hair now I’m spitting these bars cause all I feel is dispair man I just wanna leave I jus want to disappear every time i shed a tear


I just want leave man I just wanna go these last four years all I’ve thought about is home it’s killing me inside and it’s fucking up my dome all my life I’ve been troubled it’s all I’ve ever known , don’t need nobody else I’ll do it on my own I can’t wait till I’m grown till go back home I can be where I belong show my pops that I’m strong all form 11 done wrong now I’m tryna make a change but theres pricks in the way man it’s really fucking strange bro it baffeling my brain yo it’s making me deranged yo it’s making me go mad from young from the start it’s always been me and dad but I’ve always been glad cause he taught me how to be a lad taught all of my ways from the start to the end I’ve always cherished our days but now I found my new mates we love to chill and love to blaze when I stare into her eyes all I do is stargaze whiles I’m blowing on this haze I’ll stick by your side i will love you always till the end of my days and that’s that bro you’ve got me in my feelings while I’m writing this track for you 3 man I will always be glad I just want her man she’s all I’ve ever had… I love you

“Empty Messages”

(Intro)
Yeah…
Late nights, no sleep
Just me and my thoughts

(Verse 1)
Phone full of names but nobody I can call,
Smile for the world while I’m hurting through it all.
Everybody sees me, but they don’t see the pain,
Clouds over my head, every day feels like rain.

Used to have dreams that were bigger than the sky,
Now I’m sitting in my room wondering why I still try.
Got memories playing like a movie on repeat,
Every chapter got a scar, every page got grief.

(Chorus)
I’m sending messages I never send,
Missing people I can’t see again.
Trying to heal, but the wounds stay deep,
And the nights get cold when I can’t sleep.

I keep telling everybody that I’m fine,
But these tears say something different every time.
If you looked inside my heart, you’d probably see
A whole lot of pain staring back at me.

(Verse 2)
Everybody got advice, but they don’t know the fight,
Don’t know how it feels when you’re crying every night.
Don’t know how it feels when you’re lost in your head,
Reading old conversations, wishing things weren’t dead.

I still hear the voices from the people that I miss,
Thinking ‘bout the moments that I’d do anything to relive.
Time keeps moving but the hurt stays still,
Some wounds fade slow, some never really heal.

(Chorus)
I’m sending messages I never send,
Missing people I can’t see again.
Trying to heal, but the wounds stay deep,
And the nights get cold when I can’t sleep.

(Outro)
Maybe tomorrow won’t hurt this bad,
Maybe one day I’ll want the life I have.
Till then, I’m writing these words alone,
Trying to find my way back home.

I heard we letting out our feelins now tried to keep it deep inside but it's coming out all these demons in my head and they js yelling out

I mean I had epilepsy brain surgery last year an had 3 strokes and 1 bloodclot and was in 3 day coma also 110 days in hospital

I’m gonna be thinking of rapping bout roadman life like the stabbings happening on my road and city and show the kids out there what it is like for me out there 😢❤ I’m worried I’ll mess it up

Yeah alright

So let me take you back to the start of my life back when my mum and dad were ment to be husband and wife two years later then it’s shouting at night broken plates yet another fucked up fight I was just a child just sitting there didn’t know the words just felt the fucked up mood in the air

Court at three with my feet of the chat didn’t understand shit just knew it wasn’t fair listening to adults not catching a thing
Just feeling cunfused while everything changing 2 houses 1 bag once a week dad learning how smile when I felt so sad

4 yrs old new man at the door muma building sumthing I wasn’t sure of anymore then my brother everyone was smiling all small and bright he was the light mum got real busy I slipped behind started fading out of there god damn minds

It was like that till I was 9 then I heard my mamas pregnant and the baby’s gonna die

I was 9 years old hospital halls quiet voices n sighs cold white walls and confused lil eyes one month hear then he was gone and somehow life just Carried tf on I learned real young how fast shit fades how fast love leaves and never gets replaced

Year 5 stopped talking and started swinging head ful of noise it never stopped ringing teachers calling me bad like that explained it all never saw the kid with a heart so full

School felt colder every Damm year laughing crowds while I disappear sitting in class with my head down low watching the clock move so fucking slow teachers talking but they’ll never know trying to survive by my own broken self

Year 8 was when it all went dark smiling in daylight at night i was falling apart started vaping just to feel less weight just to slow down what I couldn’t escape but numb doesn’t last that shit fades away and everything heavier comes back to stay

That was the year I turned on my skin like outside pain might quietwithin long sleeves when it’s hot as hell hiding every story I wouldn’t tell didn’t feel alive didn’t feel dead just trapped with a storm inside my fucking head every night felt longer than the last drowning in the thoughts of my fucked up past

Year 9 it stopped feeling temporary sadness wasn’t a phase now it’s just steady moved in with my dad same house same walls but it felt different somehow like I changed it all looking in the mirror pickling apart
Every part calling myseld a cunt while I’m tearing apart felt heavy in ways no scale can show hating my body more than they’ll ever know started sskipping meals telling myself I’m fine like calling myself a cunt would quiet my mind empty stomach but the thoughts stayed full looked back and saw the happy kid before it all
harder to ge out of bed each day harder to give a single fuck what cunts say

More nights sitting alone in the dark heart beating heavy but its missing a spark thoughts getting louder harder to fight cunts telling me im not worth my life started believing them bit by bit like maybe i really ain’t worth shit

Tried to escape in the smokes and highs trying to blur out the constant whys some night I wondered if anyone would care if I stopped showing up just vanished from the air

For the first time in years I broke inside not loud just a silent cry tears
For the kid nobody saw covering my
In pain I never asked for

So here I stand not healed not fine
Still fighting wars in my mind
Still got nights that feel to long
Still feel like I don’t belong

But I didn’t leave
I’m still alive
Even when I tried not to survive

Maybe that’s the part I couldn’t see
That something in me won’t let me fucking leave

So that’s my story page by page a kid to young carrying adult rage
Still got scars still got doubt
Most days I don’t know how I made it the fuck out

But I’m still hear through every year through every scar and every tear

Maybe that means something maybe I survived

Maybe pride isn’t loud or strong maybe it’s just holding the fuck on
Maybe it’s waking up again
Even when the night won’t fucking end

Here's my songs

First part
Now walking down these halls, looking at nothing at all, replying the little kiss you gave him but not me Miss I regret ever last word I gave love and you reject knowing that it would leave me defeated I felt back stabbed I loved you but you turned and left me too

Second part: I seen it in your eyes when your around him u go off touching him and getting close but with me you close the door idk idk what with you hoe but we don't we don't have to do this we can go on with our life

For my dad who died

I still hear your laugh by the water’s side,
You’d splash me and smile with that sparkle in your eyes.
Sunlight dancing on the waves,
Back when life felt safe and brave.
You’d say, “Always remember who you are,”
Beautiful, brave, amazing, and smart.

You’d lift me high, higher than the sky,
Tell me not to ever let my dreams pass by.
Even when your world got dark,
You still protected my little heart.
In your arms I had no fear,
When you held me close, the world was clear.

You had your battles I didn’t understand,
But you were still my hero, still my best friend.

I miss you, Dad, it’s hard to breathe,
You’re the one I never wanted to leave.
If heaven had a phone, I’d call every day,
Just to hear you laugh and say my name.
You taught me love right from the start—
Beautiful, brave, amazing, and smart.

You fought through storms most couldn’t see,
Life was never easy, it wasn’t meant to be.
You stood your ground time after time,
Carried scars you never let define.
You were even stabbed once, still survived,
Still came home, still stayed alive.
You were stronger than the world could see,
And somehow you were still gentle with me.

We had our jokes that no one knew,
Just silly little things we’d do.
We’d look at Mom and laugh so hard,
Calling her “spaz killer” in the yard.
It didn’t mean a thing but fun,
Just chaos, teasing, everyone.
Those loud, ridiculous little days
Still echo in a hundred ways.

And every time I’d do something right,
You’d grin so big, your eyes so bright.
“That’s my baby,” in that country drawl,
Even though you weren’t country at all.
I’d roll my eyes but secretly glow,
’Cause your pride was all I needed to know.

And Aidan wasn’t your son by name,
But you loved him just the same.
You treated him like he was your own,
Never letting him feel alone.
You gave him laughter, time, and care,
A father’s love was always there.

I miss you, Dad, it’s hard to breathe,
You’re the one I never wanted to leave.
If heaven had a phone, I’d call every day,
Just to hear you laugh and say my name.
You taught me love right from the start—
Beautiful, brave, amazing, and smart.

There’s someone you never got to meet,
Your little boy, your son so sweet.
I wish you could’ve held him tight,
Watched him grow, kissed him goodnight.
I tell him stories so he will know
The way your love would always show.
Sometimes when he smiles just right,
I see your spark in his little light.

I know you weren’t perfect, none of us are,
But to me you were my brightest star.
Through every storm, through every scar,
You loved me just the way I are.
And even now when nights are long,
I feel you in my heart, in every song.

I miss you, Dad, but I’ll be okay,
I’ll carry your love in every day.
If heaven has stars, you’re shining bright,
Guiding me softly through the night.
You made me who I am, left your mark—
Beautiful, brave, amazing, and smart.

So if heaven has a phone somewhere,
I hope you know I still care.
We love you more than words can show,
And I just needed you to know…
You’re still my hero, near or far,
My first best friend, my guiding star.
And when I make you proud someday,
I’ll hear you smile and softly say—
“That’s my baby.”

Oof, been there 😅

Here’s a bilingual breakup/crush-snatch song. It’s got that mix of hurt, sass, and moving on. Afro-soul / R&B vibe fits it well.

Title: "O Mo Tsere / You Took Him"

Verse 1 – English

I thought you saw me, I thought it was real

We were laughing, talking, I could feel the feel

Then you switched up quick, now you’re by his side

Guess I was the backup plan you tried to hide

Verse 1 – Setswana

Ke ne ka re o a mpona, ke ne ka re ke nnete

Re ne re tshega, re bua, ke ne ka utlwa pelo e thunya

Jaanong o fetogile, o eme ka fa go ene

Ke ne ke le kgetho ya bobedi fela?

Chorus – Mixed

O mo tsere, o mo tsere

You took him, you took him

Ga ke a lla, ke a itse gore ke siame

I’m not crying, I know I’m better off

If that’s what you want, go ahead and go

Ke a go tlogela, pelo yame e a gola

I’m letting you go, my heart is growing

Verse 2 – English

He’s not even half of what we used to be

But I guess shiny things distract easily

Keep him then, I’m done playing detective

My time’s too valuable for what’s not reciprocal

Verse 2 – Setswana

Ga se le se sekana sa se re neng re na le sone

Mme ke itse gore dilo tse di phatsimang di a kgweetsa

Mo tsere, ga ke sa batla go lwa

Nako yame e turu thata go e senya ka maaka

Bridge – English

Maybe one day you’ll realize what you lost

But by then I’ll be gone, no looking back, no cost

I’m not bitter, nah, I’m just honest now

Some people teach you lessons, not forever

Bridge – Setswana

Mohlomongwe ka letsatsi o tla lemoga se o se latlhegetseng

Mme ka nako eo ke tla be ke tsamaile, ga ke a retologa

Ga ke a galala, ke bua nnete fela

Batho bangwe ke barutisi, eseng go nna ka bosakhutleng

Outro – Mixed

So cheers to you two, I hope it works out

Ke a le itshepa, tsamaya sentle

But don’t come back when you see what you missed

Pelo yame ga e sa le yone, I’m good, I’m lit



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Setswana phrases used:

- O mo tsere = You took him

- Ga ke a lla = I’m not crying

- Ke a go tlogela = I’m letting you go

- Pelo yame e a gola = My heart is growing/healing

- Tsamaya sentle = Go well



It’s sassy but not disrespectful, so you won’t regret posting it later 😂



Want me to make a more angry/diss version, or a sad/emotional one where you’re still hurting?

Listen I couldn’t deal with this pain so I wrote this verse ur on my mind everyday and that’s what fucking hurts and honestly not seeing u it’s the fucking worst I miss u porkz but honestly I’m just lost for words see I don’t know what to say and I don’t know what to feel but just want to let u know I love you for always keeping it real and everyone be struggling to cope I wish it wasn’t real but ur death left an impact on the whole macfield and everyone be missing u I mean the whole macfield now big up to ur bro you be keeping it real and I salute to ur mum cause so she keeping it real imagine going through this I wouldn’t know how to deal but ur death made me so sad when u left see I just wish that we more time we had a plan to get licences and go get bikes but now it fucked because u can’t even ride but I just hope u ride 5 rising in paradise until we meet again

questa è per chi sta combattendo una battaglia che nessuno sa, per chi ha perso una persona cara, per chi è al limite, per chi ha perso se stesso, tutto accade per un motivo

scrivo questo testo mentre sto piangendo
bagno il foglio su cui sto scrivendo
quando scrivo scrivo ciò che sento
te lo giuro non ti sto mentendo
le mie lacrime come benzina
la mia penna la scintilla
la musica l’unica via d’uscita, scrivo,
questa roba è la mia vita
sto cercando di riempire questo vuoto
il foglio prende fuoco
per tutta la rabbia che ci metto
sento il cuore uscire dal petto
mi ricordo camminavo a stento
ora mi sveglio presto e vado a correre fino a sfinimento
ora che posso, è il mio momento
non ho scelte di cui me ne pento
è un progresso lento, step by step non tornerei mai indietro
racks on racks
guardo solo avanti, corro fast, devo farcela, l’ho promesso
lascia stare gli altri, pensa solo a te stesso
non è egoismo è più che corretto
quando stavi nella merda, chi c’era ti chiedo?
forse ora ho capito, ho compreso

sto cercando di fa capire ciò che sento
e forse non ci riuscirò
ma almeno ci avrò provato
forse me ne andrò
senza nessuno al mio fianco
e ti ricordi quel tuo compagno di banco
sorrideva ogni giorno, si chiamava marco,
poi tutto d’un tratto, se ne è andato,
senza pensare al dolore che avrebbe lasciato
nessuno sapeva cosa stava passando
i problemi a casa, l’amore mancato
lui era forte, o almeno lo è stato, lo è stato per tanto
non aveva nessuno al suo fianco
mi sento in colpa forse ho sbagliato
ma si è arreso perché non voleva essere aiutato
l’errore più grande che abbia mai fatto
ora suo padre è infranto
non lo avevo mai visto piangere, ma quella notte ha pianto

Me siento down
en verdad me siento down
las prendas que te di qiuzas las vendiste en el pawn
En esto de el amor siempre pierdo todos los rounds
Pero me toca sonreir como un maldito clown

y tu como si nah
como si no te doliera
seguiste tu camino sin importar que muriera
la flor se marchito y no te importa como qiuera
que botaste todos los recuerdos
Dentro de la cartera

ahora siento que muero
y ya ni te soporto
alguien me dice que busque de Dios que el tiempo es corto
yo que me siento mal que casi las venas me corto
Me tiro de algun edifico o talvez me ahorco

Pero para hablarte claro no vale la pena
AunQue siento que mi alma se envenena
qiuero sentir el calor en la noche serena
aunque qiuero estar compañado en cada luna llena

Prometi no extrañrte
poreso no me da ni con buscarte
e pasado miles de cosas y no qiuero involucrarte

Borre tu numero pa no tener ni que llamarte
Pe lo peor que hice fue amarte

Me arrepiento
te lo juro por Dios que me arrepiento
pues ya todo cambio y tengo los ojos abiertos
me lo avian advertido y yo pense que no era cierto
Contigo empeze vivo pero me dejaste muerto
entendi que solo querias jugar

Tu buscabas un pasa tiempo
yo buscaba algo estable un hogar
No me busques que no qiuero dialogar
Seguire por mi camino
Usted quedese en su lugar

MAAFKAN AKU

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Intro
Maafkan aku...
Kalau lagu ni sampai kat kau,
Dengar sampai habis dulu.

Verse 1
Maafkan aku sebab janji tak tertunai,
Kata nak berubah, tapi ulang perangai sama.
Kau hulur tangan masa aku jatuh,
Aku balas dengan bohong yang tak pernah jatuh.

Aku tahu kau penat simpan kecewa,
Tapi ego ku setinggi menara,
Sampai buta tak nampak siapa setia.

Pre-Hook
Aku tauk intak maap ndak cukup,
Parut yang aku buat terlalu dalam.
Tapi kalau kau bagi satu peluang,
Aku sumpah takkan sia-siakan.

Hook
Maafkan aku,
Untuk semua luka yang aku toreh dulu.
Maafkan aku,
Untuk air mata kau yang gugur sebab aku.
Aku tak minta kau lupa,
Cuma nak kau tahu aku dah sedar.
Maafkan aku,
Sebelum terlambat, sebelum kau mengalah.

Verse 2
Aku ingat lagi malam kau kemas baju,
Kata "cukuplah, aku dah penat rindu".
Aku diam, sebab malu nak mengaku,
Aku yang rosakkan semua tanpa ragu.

Sekarang bilik kosong, katil sejuk,
Nama kau aku sebut dalam setiap tunduk.
Kawan gelak kata "padan muka",
Tapi dorang tak tahu aku hilang nyawa.

Bridge
Kalau masa boleh patah balik,
Aku nak jaga kau baik-baik.
Takkan ulang salah yang sama,
Sebab hilang kau buat aku tak sempurna.

Hook
Maafkan aku,
Untuk semua luka yang aku toreh dulu.
Maafkan aku,
Untuk air mata kau yang gugur sebab aku.
Aku tak minta kau lupa,
Cuma nak kau tahu aku dah sedar.
Maafkan aku,
Sebelum terlambat, sebelum kau mengalah.

Outro
Ni bukan lagu untuk viral,
Ni suara hati yang dah nazak.
Maafkan aku... kalau kau sudi,
Aku janji jadi manusia baru kali ni.

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Siempre me dijieron que el amor es algo eterno
que cuando dos personas se amaban ve irian hasta el infierno

Sin nesesidad de mentir ni cuerno
Pero lamentablemente no es asi pos ya no podemos ni vernos
me siento en la cama mirando el cuaderno

Con todas las fotos y todos los momentos tiernos
De todas las noches frias que pasamos juntos en el invierno

Pero nadien cre en el amor
En el tiempo moderno
Ahora casi nadie se enamora
Y cuando alguien lo hace lo otra persona no lo valora y eso duele es como si mi alma se perforra como si me disparan con una metralladora
Muchos dicen que los hombres no lloran

Yo digo que es mentir y que lo hara
Cuando le llegue la hora
Cuando se encuentre solo en una noche sola con recuerdos que lo esten matando dentro de la chola

Cuando la duda venga y lo amenaze
Y le diga al oido veras que voy a ser que tu fracase
que no seas feliz pase lo que pase
Son personas con disfrases que ya cambiaron las frases de el amor

Y yo me acuerdo cuando comenzamo
Me acuerdo de la primera vez que nos besamos
pero a ti no te importa por mas que te amo
Por que tu dices te [vas]
en vez de decir nos (vamos)

Und ich schau auf mein handy warte auf nh call der leider nicht durchkommt, und ich seh noch die alten pictures auf meim phone wo wir beide noch gelacht haben und jetzt liege ich im bett rieche noch den Duft von Chanel doch du bist schon längst gegann, chill auf nh Parkbank wo wir uns das erstmal kennengelernt haben.
Und ich denke all time long nur an dich und an deine Braun haare, baby du warst ein pokal für mich den man mir entzogen hat weil ich das erste mal richtig so richtig glücklich war, doch jetzt seh ich bei nem andern Typen den pokal, es hittet so hart wenn ich mich an vergangene moments zurück erinnere, und ich seh alles nur noch grau, bae was sind eigentlich Farben so genau, habe keine Tränen doch innerlich hittets mich fühlt sich an als spring ich von nh Klippe ohne Fallschirm, so sehr distanziert und kühl warst du noch nie, habe alles gegeben doch alles war immernoch nicht genug, war ich jemals genug für dich...

feel like your friends don’t even care

like you fade out just standing there

wanna vanish, but you hold on slow

yeah you don’t wanna let go

bathroom light, 3AM

staring at the mirror again

say you’re fine but you don’t know

how much longer you can hold on. bout to commit but you don't wanna leave. don't know what to do just standing there. grab a pen and write the notes. ball your fist and take a hit, bodies getting numb just one more hit, straight to the core.

don’t know what to do, just standing there

room spinning but you’re going nowhere

grab a pen, try to let it out

every word full of silent doubt

fists clenched tight, feeling sore

heart’s still heavy, can’t take more

going numb but you feel it all

like you’re bracing for the fall

Is my music good?

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I feel like I don’t belong on the world

‎nasa panahon na tayo ng dulo ng sandali
‎kumupas ng mga larawan at tamis ng yung ngiti nagbabakasakali lng nmn na kahit sandali ay pabagalin ang oras pagkat ayaw kung umuwi
‎
‎mugtong mga mata kumikirot pati ang puso, kala ko ay masaya ngunit iyakan pala dito kung aabutin hahabulin kahit na akoy hapuin yayakapin sasabihin ang huling lamang damdamin
‎
‎salamat sa lahat ng ating mga pagsasama
‎sa saya lungkot pait kamiy di nawalan ng gana patunayan ang tapat bawat na pag kakaisa nasa iisang bubong na parang mag kakapamilya
‎
‎karamay at kadamay kahit maubos ang laway, o kaaway pasaway sa huli ay pataway na nag sisilbi ng alay sa buhay mo at alalay sa daan ng madilim kung san binigyang mo ng kulay
‎
‎ngunit sa likod nito ay may dapat pasalamatan, nasating bawat hakbang ay gumabay sya ng tuluyan mga aral at laman hanggang sa mag ka alam nasa at sa bawat sandali abutin ng kailanman
‎
‎Sir Wjeysther paalam hanggang sa muli
‎na kahit anong oras ay di ka nag atubili
‎na alayan kami kahit kamiy nasa mali
‎pagiging tunay moy patunay na ikaw ay binhi

Dil ki meri sun na sum meri bato ko
Ma subah chohu future ki
Fir soo ni pata rato ko
Ma bato ko ni janta
Dard likhu apna ise kaala bi ni Manta
Wo soche giru ma aur wo nikle mujse age
Par uske jaise nahi hi ma

Intro
صافي بعدي مني…
Sorry صدقتي bitch
في راسي قاع ما مهني…
باغي rich
Couplet 1
كا نكمي جونات باش نقاد لقانة
ديما في بلاصتي شاد لكوانة
I am sorry mama
قاع ما قدر نرضيك
كا تمشي عليا وانا كا نشوف فيك
I love you mama
I love you mama
Refrain
في راسي حلم كبير
باغي نوصل ونولي مشهور
الدنيا دارت بيا دور
بصح قلبي بقى صبور
I love you mama
دعواتك هي النور
نمشي في طريق صعيب
بصح نرجع منصور
Couplet 2
سمحو ليا أنا ماشي لحاس للكابة
هكا علمني papa في حياتي صابر
بغتي تمشي vasi
خلّيني أنا وراسي معاشرين
Mood دنيا صعيب يا عشري
ما نخويش بالعشرة
وخا نتي عليا تيري
Nivo لي وبينكم بعيد
ما غتلحقنيش
وخا باريط
Refrain
في راسي حلم كبير
باغي نوصل ونولي مشهور
الدنيا دارت بيا دور
بصح قلبي بقى صبور
I love you mama
دعواتك هي النور
نمشي في طريق صعيب
بصح نرجع منصور
Outro
I love you mama
ربي يخليك ليا
نهار لي نطلع الفوق
نفرح بيك ونفرح بيا
تعبت بزاف في حياتي
بصح ما نحبش نطيح
نبقى نجري على حلمي
حتى يجي نهار ونرتاح

Me ek aise isshk ka mara
Jisme noor na dikhe tumara
Phirbhi dil mera ye pigalta jara, jalta jara
Chalta jara pas e tere saye ke
Bas ek hi meri aas hai ki mujhko bhi wafa mile
Kyu ki mene bhi hai dekhe riste solon ke
Jitne bhi te mere kas yaar unko bewafa mile
Aaj bhi hai Kate hai rate apni unki yadon me
Par jane do na rakene unse shikwe koi
Bas tumara intezar hai , tum aaogi mitaogi sare dard mere
Tum laogi vo roshani mitega mere dilme jo andera base

lets go

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আমার অসমাপ্ত প্যারা আমারে দিয়া গেলো কেরা
সময়টাও আজকে বেইমান, লগে আমার চলাফেরা
দুঃখ হইলো কেন জাগ্রত পেরা হইলো আমার দাসি
ভবে কেন যে আইলাম আমি কেরা হাইসা দিল ফাঁসি
দেখবার চাইতাছিতো কাফন কেউ নাইতো আমার আপন
আমি যারে ভাবছি আপন সেই তো করতে ঘুরে দাফন
আমার অন্ধ আত্মাটারে আমি নিকোটিনে পুরাই
আমার আবেগ-বিবেক সবগুলারে ধোঁয়ার মধ্যে উড়াই
আমার নেশার ঘরে কীসের প্যারা আইসা জইমা থাকে?
আমার আপনা মানুষ স্বার্থ লইয়া কেমনে কইরা ভাগে
মনে কয় আমারে ক্ষ্যাপা তুই চুপ করবি কবে?
তোর হিসাব তো মিলবো না এই depression-এর ভবে
আর এইডাই যে জীবন যানলে ছারতাম জগত কবে
এখন পায়ে বাঁন্ধা শিকল উরতে চাইলেও খাঁচায় রবে
খালি পকেটে চিনাইছে আমার জগতে আপন কেরা
এখন স্বার্থডারে চিন্না ঘারের রগটা হইছে তেরা

𝗜 𝗠𝗶𝘀𝘀 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗟𝗶𝗻𝗮𝘀𝗵 🤍

ජීවිතේ සරලයි මැරෙන්න ඉදපෙන්නේ පටන ගැම්ම අවසානය අරගෙන එන්නෙ

පටන් ගද්දිම මොකාද එතකොට දුක් දෙන්නෙ
මතක් වෙන්නෑ මොකද
මතකයෙමයි ඉන්නෙ

යකඩ හීන දුර ගෙවිච්ච යාලුවා සෙට්වෙද්දීත් දැන් දැනෙන්නෙ පාලුවක් 🤍

හිතෙනවා මේක හීනයක් කරන විහිලුවක් 🤍

ඇහැරෙන්නෑ දැන් අපිව කවුරුත් ඇහැරුවත්

ඇහැරෙන්නෙ උබ ආවොත් අපි අතරට යලි 🤍

ඇවිදින්නේ හීනෙන් මිනිස්සු ගන්නෙ අපෙන් පලි

පරදින්නෙ මරනින් හැමෝට කවුද කියනවා ඇසුනා



කොච්චර හිතුවත් ආයෙ එන්නෙ නෑ සෙට් එකට බහින්නෑ අපිට ආයෙ පේන්නෑ කොච්චර ගියත්
අපෙ මතකෙ යන්නෙ නෑ

අහසෙ දෙවියො නෑ ආයෙ ලිනාශ් එන්නෙ නෑ 🤍

ජීවිතේ කොහෙද කොයිවෙලේද කවුරුත් දන්නෙ නෑ ජීවිතේ වගේ අපේ ඒත් ලිනාශ් එන්නෙ නෑ

දෙවියො කියලා කෙනෙක් ඉදියානම් මෙහෙම වෙන්නෙ නෑ අහසෙ දෙවියො නෑ ආයෙ ලිනාශ් එන්නෙ නෑ 🤍

දෙවියන්ටත් දැන් වැරදිලා
ජීවිතේ ගේම පැරදිලා
දයිවය ඉදලා මග නැවතිලා
අපෙ එකාට ආවේ ඒක කැරකිලා 🤍

නෑ මෙහෙම අපි තැවිලා
දුක් පේලි පද මැවිලා
යකඩ හිත් තැවිලා යකඩ හීන මැකිලා

ලබන ආත්මෙ හරි බැහැපන් තරුවක්
වෙලා දිලිලා 🤍

ඇලිලා විස පස්සෙ අපි දිවුවෙ එකට දැන් උබ
නෑ ලෝකෙ

තැවිලා අපි 𝗧𝗿𝘆 කරා ඒත් නෑ රහක් ඒත් බිවුවෙ අපි දුකට පිට වෙන්න ශෝකෙ 🤍

එකා වගේ ඉදියා ඒත් උබ අද නෑ

මුහුද යකා වගේ ඇදලා
ගත්තා හිතා ගන්න බෑ

ලිනාශ් තාම එන්නෙ එකට
මේක ලිවුවෙ දුකට උබට
තියලා ගියේ කොටලා මතකය හදවතේ කියලා දීලා යතාර්තේ

ජීවිතේ කොහෙද කොයිවෙලේද කවුරුත් දන්නෙ නෑ ජිවීතේ වගේ අපේ ඒත් ලිනාශ් එන්නෙ නෑ

දෙවියො කියලා කෙනෙක් ඉදියානම් මෙහෙම වෙන්නෙ නෑ අහසේ දෙවියො නෑ ආයෙ ලිනාශ් එන්නෙ නෑ 🤍

J’me rappelle des cris qui traversaient les murs
La nuit tombait, mais à la maison c’était plus dur
Mon père frappait la table, parfois même ma mère
Moi j’serrais les poings, trop petit pour faire la guerre

Les voisins fermaient leurs fenêtres, silence dans l’immeuble
Moi j’apprenais la vie avant même d’être un homme
Le cœur plein de rage, les yeux pleins de questions
Pourquoi l’amour finit toujours en explosion

Alors j’suis sorti tard trainer sous les lampadaires
La rue m’a parlé plus que mon propre père
Les grands disaient : “Petit, la vie c’est pas un jeu”
Mais au fond d’leurs yeux j’voyais les mêmes bleus

Refrain
J’ai grandi dans le bruit des portes qui claquent
Entre les coups, les larmes et la rue qui m’appelle
Mon cœur s’endurcit, mon âme se braque
Dans la nuit j’cherche une lumière éternelle

La rue m’a élevé quand la maison s’écroulait
Entre colère et rêves qu’on voulait étouffer
J’porte les cicatrices que personne voit
Mais j’avance quand même, j’ai pas le choix

Couplet 2
Ma mère pleurait en silence dans la cuisine
Moi j’promettais qu’un jour j’changerais la routine
Que j’ferais assez d’oseille pour la sortir d’ici
Loin des murs fissurés et des souvenirs maudits

La rue m’a appris la loyauté, la survie
À lire dans les regards, à comprendre la nuit
Certains amis sont tombés, d’autres ont disparu
Parce que dans ce monde personne est à l’abri

Parfois j’regarde le ciel et j’parle à l’enfant
Celui qui voulait juste une maison sans tourments
Mais la vie t’endurcit quand t’as trop vu de drames
Alors j’écris mes douleurs pour pas qu’elles me condamnent

Refrain
J’ai grandi dans le bruit des portes qui claquent
Entre les coups, les larmes et la rue qui m’appelle
Mon cœur s’endurcit, mon âme se braque
Dans la nuit j’cherche une lumière éternelle

La rue m’a élevé quand la maison s’écroulait
Entre colère et rêves qu’on voulait étouffer
J’porte les cicatrices que personne voit
Mais j’avance quand même, j’ai pas le choix

Outro
Si un jour j’ai un fils, j’lui donnerai la paix
Pas les cris, pas les coups, pas les nuits sans arrêt
Parce qu’un homme n’est pas celui qui fait peur
C’est celui qui protège et qui soigne les cœurs.

Ciao,son sincero
Forse tutto questo un po lo temevo
Svegliarmi guardarmi allo specchio
Capire senza te finalmente sto meglio
Cazzo però ci credevo
Sapere chi sei
Pensare ciò che ero
Lasciarti andare in fondo mi ha spezzato
Quanto ti ho amato,quanto ti ho odiato sapevi quello che ho passato, e forse son diventato troppo
troppo profondo
Troppo tempo che tocco il fondo
Troppo tempo che poi risalgo
Un tuo bacio mi faceva stare al caldo
Troppo tempo che guardo indietro
Troppo tempo che ho perso chi ero
Quel bambino lo vedo prima sorridevo
Troppo tempo ti son stato appresso
Troppo tempo ho regalato spazio
Troppo tempo che penso domani o vinco oppure mi ammazzo
Eppure lo sai io sognavo in grande tutto si è spento frate nonostante
Ci credevo,eppure ormai di tempo ne passato,spero che tu mi abbia dimenticato,purtroppo ancora non ci riesco,tutt’ora penso sia troppo presto
E ci ho provato anche a lascerti alle spalle,ma sai mi sembra impossibile abbiamo condiviso e vissuto l’inverosimile,il tuo ricordo sbiadito diventa pesante,la tua voce risuona in quelle stanze,dove camminavi col freddo in mutande,e cazzo se ci ho sofferto ma bisogna stare male per poi stare meglio eppure ancora mi appari in sogno,forse ciò a qui tieni di più ti ferisce più in fondo…



E sai quanto ci ho provato i miei amici fratelli mi hanno aiutato,a te invece sai ti ringrazio,se non fossi stata così troia non sarei così maschio,guarda rabbia uno sguardo e pensavo questo lo ammazzo,ma son cresciuto ho rimescolato le carte del mio mazzo,ora forse va meglio,mi sveglio mangio e mi alleno vado al lavoro e son sincero forse questo è quello che temevo, la sincerità a volte è imbarazzante dire di ti amo fa tremare le gambe,ma è troppo importante,sapere che esiste l’amore incondizionato,di tua madre quando sei nato,del tuo amico quando gli hai sorriso,niente parole ma lo sentivo,e lui lo sapeva nel momento peggiore mi ha salvato,ma cazxo quanto ho lottato contro questa solitudine,che pesa come martello sull’incudine,mi sono amato,anche da solo,perché sono uomo,spalle larghe e petto in fuori,le ripetevo come facevano i professori col programma e non mi son mai sentito in gamba,abbastanza,tutta questa apparenza a volte ci inganna,ma qualsiasi cosa voglio che tu sappia,anche se non sono affianco alla tua stanza,e probabilmente è il ricordo che ho dentro di qui sono ancora innamorato,dopo tutto ciò che abbiamo passato,in fondo ancora ti amo,sarebbe una cszzata rinnegare ciò che siamo,ancora ti ringrazio perché senza di te adesso,non sarei un cazzo


E son stato sincero per troppo poco tempo
Per troppo poco ho goduto davvero quell’attimo che non torna più indietro
Per troppo poco tempo ho giocato,in poco troppo tempo sono cresciuto è diventato,quello che mi ha sempre spaventato, e sai son stato sincero,ma tu troia sì mi hai usato e quindi sono diventato….

Chatgpt Биш okeyy
Утаанд боогдсон өглөө, автобусанд амьсгалгүй,
Улаанбаатарын гудамжинд үнэн үг завгүй.
Хог дүүрэн толгой, хоосон тархи, инээмсэглэл,
Хотын зүрхэнд шударга ёс хайгаад олдохгүй сүүдэрлэл.

Мөнгө ярьдаг ам, мөрөөдөл үхсэн хүүхдүүд,
Мэдлэг биш lag lag биш ирээдүйг бүтээнэ гэж үү?
Дарга нарын халаас зузаан, ард түмэн нь өлсгөлөн,
Дараалалд зогссон найдвар, дарангуйлалд хүлэгдсэн.

Арван зургаатай охини шүүхийн
хаалганд зогсоно,
Нас нь балчир ч амьдрал нь аль хэдийн орихоод одсоон.
Алдаа хийсэн хүүхдийг нийгэм нь шууд л булшилна,
Харин үнэн шалтгааныг сонирхохгүй, нууж орхино.

Сэтгэцийн өвчтэй нь нэг гэр бүлээр нь сүйрүүлнэ,
Сэрэмж байгаагүй систем бурууг нь хүнд түхүүлэнэ
Өвчнийг эмчлэх биш, орхих нь л амар,
Орхигдсон сэтгэл эцэстээ аймшиг болж гарна

Цэрэг яваад зодуулсан залуу Гэртээ ирнээ,
Эх орон нь түүнийг хамгаалах биш дуугүй л үлдэнэ.
Эр зориг гэж ярьдаг ч эрүүл мэнд нь нурна,
Эзэнгүй шударга ёс энд хэнд ч үйлчлэхгүй байж сурна

Зам дээр бухимдал, цонхоор хараал ниснэ,
Залуусын нүдэнд гал байна, гэвч боломж нь гиснэ.
Сошиалд баатар, бодит амьдралд gool,
Санаа бодол нь цоожтой, систем нь ноён боол

Гэхдээ би дуугарна,энэ ам үнэнийг хэлнэ,
Гэмт нийгмийг эмчлэх эм нь ухамсар гэдгийг сануулна.
Харанхуйг хараагаад суух биш гэрэл асаана,
Хойч үеийн төлөө энэ бохир ертөнцийг засна
Архи тамхи хоёр энд “эр хүн” гэдэг нэртэй,
Анхны балга, анхны соролт — алдаа нь тэндээс эхтэй.
“Гоё” гэж бодоод гартаа шил барина,
Гэтэл маргааш нь толгой хоосон, зорилгоо ч алдана.

Тамхи утаа сорж байгааг “style” гэж эндүүрнэ,
Тархиа биш уушгиа л аажмаар шатааж байгаагаа мэдэхгүй тэнүүрнэ.
Нэг соролт, нэг балга — зуршил болж хувирна,
Нэг л мэдэхэд чи өөрөө өөрийнхөө дайсан болчихно.

Архи уугаад зориг орно, уур хилэн гарна,
Асуудал ярьж шийдэхийн оронд гар нь түрүүлж зангана.
Хана нурааж, хүн зодоод “эр” болчихсон мэт,
Харин дотроо сул дорой, айдсаа архинд л өгдөг нь үнэн.

Гэрт уйлаан, гудамжинд зодоон, шөнө нь цагдаа,
“Маргааш больё” гэж амлаад дахин л давтана.
Хүүхэд буланд чимээгүй, эхнэр нүдэнд нулимстай,
Хүчирхийлэл энд өвлөгдөнө, үеэс үед дамжина, ойлгочих.

Бааранд дууссан мөрөөдөл, шилэнд живсэн авьяас,
Багын том зорилго одоо “маргааш л” гэдэг худал шанс.
Найз гэж хэн бэ, хундага чинь уу, хүн чинь үү,
Нэг унахад хэн ч барихгүй, шил л дэргэд чинь үлдэнэ шүү.

Гэхдээ би хэлнэ — архи бол гарц биш,
Тамхи бол стиль биш, аажим үхэл гэдгийг сана, тэнэг биш.
Хүчирхийлэл бол хүч биш, сул доройн илрэл,
Хүн гэдэг уур хилэнгээр биш ухамсраар л ялгарна, энэ миний үнэн.

Гинжийг таслах цаг нь одоо, өөрөөсөө эхэл,
Өчигдрийн алдааг биш маргаашийн зорилгыг тэврэл.
Шилээ биш мөрөөдлөө гартаа барь,
Шатаж биш гэрэлтэж амьдрахыг сонго, ах нь хэлж байна, хар.

Yeah, alright.

Let me take you back to the start of my life,

When my mum and my dad were meant to be husband and wife.

Two years later it’s shouting at night,

Broken plates and another fucked-up fight.

I was just a baby just lying there,

Didn’t know the words — just felt the fucked-up mood in the air.

Court at three with my feet off the chair,

Didn’t understand shit, just knew it wasn’t fair.

Judge hits the gavel — split my life in two,

Like I’m a problem they’re passing through.

Two houses, one bag, once-a-week dad,

Learning how to smile when I felt like absolute shit, not just sad.

Four years old, new man at the door,

Mum building some new life I wasn’t sure of anymore.

Then my brother came, small and bright,

Everyone was smiling — he was the light.

Mum got real busy, I slipped behind,

Started fading out of their god damn minds.

Nine years old, hospital halls,

Quiet voices behind cold white walls.

One month here, then he was gone,

And somehow life just carried the fuck on.

I learned real young how fast shit fades,

How love just leaves and never gets replaced.

Year five I fought instead of spoke,

Anger building every time I broke.

They called me trouble, called me bad,

Never asked why I was hurting that fucking bad.

School felt colder every damn year,

Laughing crowds while I disappear.

Sitting in class with my head down low,

Watching the clock move so fuckin slow.

Teachers talking but I’m somewhere else,

Trying to survive my own broken self.

Year eight was when it all went dark,

Smiling in daylight, at night falling apart.

Started vaping just to feel less weight,

Just to slow down what I couldn’t escape.

But numb doesn’t last — that shit fades away,

And everything heavier comes back to stay.

That was the year I turned on my skin,

Like outside pain could quiet what’s within.

Long sleeves even when it’s hot as hell,

Hiding every story I’d never tell.

Didn’t feel alive, didn’t feel dead,

Just trapped with a storm in my fucking head.

Every night felt longer than the last,

Drowning in thoughts of my fucked-up past.

Year nine it stopped feeling temporary,

Sadness wasn’t a phase — now it’s just steady.

Harder to get out of bed each day,

Harder to give a single fuck what people say.

Looking in mirrors and feeling nothing,

Like I’m just a body barely functioning.

More nights sitting alone in the dark,

Heart beating heavy but missing a spark.

Thoughts getting louder, harder to fight,

Whispers telling me I’m not worth my life.

Started believing them bit by bit,

Like maybe I really ain’t worth shit.

Tried to escape in smoke and highs,

Trying to blur out the constant “whys.”

Some nights I wondered if anyone would care

If I stopped showing up, just vanished from the air.

For the first time in years I broke inside,

Not loud — just a quiet cry.

Tears I didn’t know I still had,

For the kid who grew up too fucking sad.

So here I stand — not healed, not fine,

Still fighting wars in my mind.

Still got nights that feel too long,

Still feel like I don’t belong.

But I didn’t leave.

I’m still alive.

Even when I tried not to survive.

Maybe that’s the part I couldn’t see —

That something in me won’t let me fucking leave.

Not strong.

Not okay.

Just here.

And for now… that’s enough to stay.

That’s my story — page by page,

A kid too young carrying adult rage.

Still got scars, still got doubt,

Most days I don’t know how I make it the fuck out.

But I’m still here.

Through every year.

Through every tear I tried to hide.

Maybe that means something.

Maybe I survived.

Maybe pride isn’t loud or strong,

Maybe it’s just holding the fuck on.

Maybe it’s waking up again

Even when the night won’t fucking end.

And if I’m still breathing tonight,

Maybe I’m still meant to win this fight.

Yeah, alright.

Let me take you back to the start of my life,

When my mum and my dad were meant to be husband and wife.

Two years later it’s shouting at night,

Broken plates and another fucked-up fight.

I was just a baby just lying there,

Didn’t know the words — just felt the fucked-up mood in the air.

Court at three with my feet off the chair,

Didn’t understand shit, just knew it wasn’t fair.

Judge hits the gavel — split my life in two,

Like I’m a problem they’re passing through.

Two houses, one bag, once-a-week dad,

Learning how to smile when I felt like absolute shit, not just sad.

Four years old, new man at the door,

Mum building some new life I wasn’t sure of anymore.

Then my brother came, small and bright,

Everyone smiling — he was the light.

Mum got real busy, I slipped behind,

Started fading out of their damn minds.

Nine years old, hospital halls,

Quiet voices behind cold white walls.

One month here, then he was gone,

And somehow life just carried the fuck on.

I learned real young how fast shit fades,

How love just leaves and never gets replaced.

Year five I fought instead of spoke,

Anger building every time I broke.

They called me trouble, called me bad,

Never asked why I was hurting that fucking bad.

School felt colder every damn year,

Laughing crowds while I disappear.

Sitting in class with my head down low,

Watching the clock move slow as fuck.

Teachers talking but I’m somewhere else,

Trying to survive my own broken self.

Year eight was when it all went dark,

Smiling in daylight, at night falling apart.

Started vaping just to feel less weight,

Just to slow down what I couldn’t escape.

But numb doesn’t last — that shit fades away,

And everything heavier comes back to stay.

That was the year I turned on my skin,

Like outside pain could quiet what’s within.

Long sleeves even when it’s hot as hell,

Hiding every story I’d never tell.

Didn’t feel alive, didn’t feel dead,

Just trapped with a storm in my fucking head.

Every night felt longer than the last,

Drowning in thoughts of my fucked-up past.

Year nine it stopped feeling temporary,

Sadness wasn’t a phase — now it’s just steady.

Harder to get out of bed each day,

Harder to give a single fuck what people say.

Looking in mirrors and feeling nothing,

Like I’m just a body barely functioning.

More nights sitting alone in the dark,

Heart beating heavy but missing a spark.

Thoughts getting louder, harder to fight,

Whispers telling me I’m not worth life.

Started believing them bit by bit,

Like maybe I really ain’t worth shit.

Tried to escape in smoke and highs,

Trying to blur out the constant “whys.”

Some nights I wondered if anyone would care

If I stopped showing up, just vanished from there.

For the first time in years I cried,

Not loud — just breaking inside.

Tears I didn’t know I still had,

For the kid who grew up too fucking sad.

So here I stand — not healed, not fine,

Still fighting wars in my mind.

Still got nights that feel too long,

Still feel like I don’t belong.

But I didn’t leave.

I’m still alive.

Even when I tried not to survive.

Maybe that’s the part I couldn’t see —

That something in me won’t let me fucking leave.

Not strong.

Not okay.

Just here.

And for now… that’s enough to stay.

That’s my story — page by page,

A kid too young carrying adult rage.

Still got scars, still got doubt,

Most days I don’t know how I make it the fuck out.

But I’m still here.

Through every year.

Through every tear I tried to hide.

Maybe that means something.

Maybe I survived.

Maybe pride isn’t loud or strong,

Maybe it’s just holding the fuck on.

Maybe it’s waking up again

Even when the night won’t fucking end.

And if I’m still breathing tonight,

Maybe I’m still meant to win this fight.

Mesmo que agente não se dava muito bem, que sdds meu irmão, se cuida daí que a que em baixo tá difícil, mais vou vencer pela nossa família meu pcr eu prometo, te odeio, mais te amo muito meu irmão um dia agente se tromba, fica com Deus 🖤😮‍💨😓

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I have a question, can I use the beat to record a song and credit you?

non mi riconosco
di cosa pensate voi me ne fotto

di prima mattina mi sale l’ansia
paura che mamma mi minaccia
cresciuta tra urla , schiaffi e poi scappa

spero di non sentire “papà non ce la fatta “
perché da lì la mia vita sarà infranta

fumo con la socia sulla panca
perché di sta situazione sono stanca

dice “zia andrà tutto bene”
ma sto lì a pianger tutte le sere
colpa del passato se le mie giornate son nere

vorrei prendere in mano i miei pensieri
e scordar chi sono lo farei volentieri
perché sta vita mi ha portato solo dispiaceri

tra cartine filtri e fumo
mi ricordo che con me non c’era nessuno

sono in dipendenza
perché tutto è una merda
sarà questa la mia essenza
ma sono di più
solo che ora sono giù

nel fondo
del mondo
nel più profondo
ma io lo nascondo

papa dice di sorridere
ma in questa vita voglio vincere

essere in alto
dopo aver sofferto dal basso

passo dopo passo
arriverò al mio traguardo
anche se lontano

ho cambiato sguardo
ora sempre mi incazzo

sta rabbia mi pone un distacco
da anni che non do un abbraccio

main khud se hi tootttttt gaya…
sheeshe sa bikharrrr gaya…
kyun teri khamoshiiii…
dil ko yun jalati rahi…
tu doorrrrrrr hua…
par saans mein basta raha…
agar tu kahinnnn mil jaaye…
main phirrrrr se jee uthu zaraaa…
🎶 VERSE 1
raat ke sheher mein tanha sa phirta raha,
apni hi parchhaiyon se darta raha,
diwaar pe likha tha naam tera,
par waqt usey dhundla karta raha…
khwabon ke kagaz jala diye maine,
par dhuan tera chehra banata raha,
log kehte bhool ja usey,
par dil tera pata batata raha…
aankhon mein nami, par hasi bhi saath,
jaise zakhmon ko sajata raha,
andar se veeran tha poora main,
upar se khud ko sambhalta raha…
teri yaadon ka mausam ajeeb tha,
baarish bhi thi par jalta raha,
tu gaya to mehsoos hua mujhe,
main zinda tha par marta raha…
🎤 HOOK
main khud se hi tootttttt gaya…
sheeshe sa bikharrrr gaya…
kyun teri khamoshiiii…
dil ko yun jalati rahi…
tu doorrrrrrr hua…
par saans mein basta raha…
agar tu kahinnnn mil jaaye…
main phirrrrr se jee uthu zaraaa…
🎶 VERSE 2
chand bhi aaj kal poora nahi lagta,
jaise uska noor bhi chhin gaya,
meri duniya ka markaz tu thi,
tere jaane se sab kuch thin gaya…
main lafzon ka jadugar tha kabhi,
ab alfaaz bhi mujhse rooth gaye,
jo geet likhe the tere liye,
wohi mere seene ko loot gaye…
raaston ne bhi sawal kiye,
kyun akela chal raha hai tu?
maine hans kar jhoot kaha sabse,
ke ab theek ho gaya hai tu…
par sach to ye hai ae humsafar,
main ab bhi wahi thama hua,
tera naam jo dil pe likha tha,
wo aaj bhi hai jama hua…
agar kismat ne palat kar dekha,
aur tu dobara samne aa gaya,
main phir se tootne ko tayyar hoon,
bas ek dafa tu muskura gaya…
🎤 HOOK
main khud se hi tootttttt gaya…
sheeshe sa bikharrrr gaya…
kyun teri khamoshiiii…
dil ko yun jalati rahi…
tu doorrrrrrr hua…
par saans mein basta raha…
agar tu kahinnnn mil jaaye…
main phirrrrr se jee uthu zaraaa…
🎼 OUTRO
agar mil bhi jao kabhi raste mein,
shayad kuch na keh paun main,
bas aankhon se baat ho jaaye,
aur phir se jee jaaun main…
sheeshe sa tha…
sheeshe sa hoon…
par tere liye…
ab bhi poora hoon…

You were living in Dubai, chasing better days
While I was in New Zealand, counting down the stays
Different time zones, but the love stayed tight
Late night calls just to say goodnight

You said you’d come back for Uncle’s tangi
Even though the pain was heavy in the family
I was proud you were flying home
Didn’t think that trip would change our home

You landed back on New Zealand ground
But instead of hugs, it was siren sounds
Airport lights shining cold and white
That’s the day my world lost light

I wasn’t there but I see it clear
You walking through, then they pulled you near
No warning sign, no time to pray
Just handcuffs taking you away

(Chorus)
You came home for love, you came home for grief
Now I’m holding onto broken belief
From Dubai skies to a prison cell
How did goodbye turn into this hell?

I’m in New Zealand, you’re behind a wall
Same blood, but I can’t reach you at all
I’d trade every mile between me and you
Just to change what happened at that airport view

(Verse 2)
Tangi tears mixed with something worse
Grieving twice and it hurts, it hurts
Lost my uncle, then lost you too
In a way nobody ever knew

People talking but they don’t feel this
They don’t know what distance is
When your dad’s alive but not really free
And you’re stuck missing your family

I replay that airport in my head
All the things I wish I said
“Stay safe, Dad,” “Come back soon”
Didn’t know fate was moving that soon

Now phone calls replace your face
Visiting hours take your place
Dubai feels like a dream we had
And New Zealand just feels sad

(Bridge – softer)
You flew home for family love
Didn’t know you’d leave in cuffs
If I could rewrite that day somehow
I’d hold you tighter than I ever have now

(Chorus)
You came home for love, you came home for grief
Now I’m holding onto broken belief
From Dubai skies to a prison cell
How did goodbye turn into this hell?

I’m in New Zealand, you’re behind a wall
Same blood, but I can’t reach you at all
I just want my dad back home
No more airports, no more alone