A playlist to be alone with everything you’re feeling..
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“The floor seemed wonderfully solid. It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no farther..”
“The floor seemed wonderfully solid. It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no farther..”
—Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar
TIMESTAMPS / Navigator
Winds of Tomorrow 0:00
C o n f e s s i o n s 2:21
Pride & Preludes 4:38
Le Chat de la Ruelle 7:33
Sparkle Waltz 10:43
R e f l e c t i o n s 13:33
Gemini Waltz 17:18
Valse Delicante No.2 18:45
Cloud 707 20:27
In a Liminal Space 24:18
A Dark Fantasy 25:57
Sing Softly To Me.. 28:40
Gossamer 31:48
Fools in The Rain 35:42
across the lavender sky 38:00
Luma Waltz 40:34
I’ll pretend that you’re near.. 42:56
Eternal Illusion No.2 51:07
Limerence 52:46
What’s Left of Me 55:17
A Place Only We Know 58:54
Lost Letters 1:02:56
What Falling in Love Feels Like 1:06:21
When Thoughts Drown You 1:08:43
Valse Réminiscence 1:12:14
Once Upon a Time 1:16:32
// All Music Composed By Pianza //
—Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar
TIMESTAMPS / Navigator
Is it ok to not feel heard even though you have all these friends that are there for you and listen to your problems but still doesn't feel like enough or be someone with special needs and get verbally and physically abused for being slow and can't take a hint about what's going on? Because I'm someone who feels like I'm not heard enough even though I have people that are there for me and listen to my problems but doesn't really feel heard and I also feel like people don't really realize what they do to other people especially to people with special needs because my parents and my sister always scream and have to hit my brother just because he is autistic which makes him slow and possibly forget things that he just learnt since he's probably worried about messing up and then getting yelled at or get hit and sometimes he gets in trouble for just simply existing or doing something that easily pisses other people off but just because someone is diagnosed with something like ADHD, OCD, autism, etc. doesn't mean that you can just abuse them in any kind of way, treat them with the same respect as you would give to other people that are nice to you and is always there for you so don't be a coward and actually listen to people with special needs or just wants to be heard.
Winds of Tomorrow 0:00
C o n f e s s i o n s 2:21
Well done
Pride & Preludes 4:38
Le Chat de la Ruelle 7:33
this is honestly my fav mix to journal to
Sparkle Waltz 10:43
R e f l e c t i o n s 13:33
the loml cheated on me..fucking sucks im prolly never gonna be able to talk to them again cuz they blocked me..if anyone else is going through similar shit rn..please know ur not alone and ilysm,sending love and hugs ur way xx
-lily
Gemini Waltz 17:18
Valse Delicante No.2 18:45
Hi I'm alone yes I don't have any friend who I talked with often and at school I have almost no friend.I am feeling very bad God please grant me a friend or a person who can lift me out of this dark place. I thurly want this...
Cloud 707 20:27
In a Liminal Space 24:18
I just finished reading Remarque Triumphal arc. Life has a lot of pain in it, and it has always been like that. You can only accept or reject that, but denial will only cause you more pain. But... there is love, and there is faith, and there is hope, and there is BEAUTY in this world, and life is definitely worth living.
A Dark Fantasy 25:57
Sing Softly To Me.. 28:40
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Gossamer 31:48
Fools in The Rain 35:42
I discovered too late that my cat was seriously ill. She had to be put down today. She purred while my parents and I said goodbye to her. For about 20 minutes, I couldn't say goodbye to her because I periodically broke down into sobs. In the end, I couldn't bear to watch her stop breathing and im fall into the chair next to me. I still remember her affectionate look at the moment of our farewell. It's my fault. I realized too late that it was so bad for my closest living being. Please forgive me, Sasha. I'm so sorry.
across the lavender sky 38:00
Luma Waltz 40:34
I always dreamed of living the life I wished for, but after all this, it seems it was only a dream. If I could go back in time, I would choose to live the simple life I always wanted. But not everything you wish for comes true. I have to accept that I lost. 💔
I’ll pretend that you’re near.. 42:56
Eternal Illusion No.2 51:07
Stupid fucking add ruined the vibe.
Limerence 52:46
What’s Left of Me 55:17
I’m suffocating in my house; I want to travel sb. I can’t spend another summer at home, please
A Place Only We Know 58:54
Lost Letters 1:02:56
Purposeless,broken,hurted.
No money.
What Falling in Love Feels Like 1:06:21
When Thoughts Drown You 1:08:43
Grief has washed over me so much lately. I laid in bed sobbing about my cat, then my bestfriend, then my grandma, then grandpa, then other grandma, cousin, uncle, great grandpa, etc. So many loses and so much pressure to be who they all thought i was/am worth. My partner cradled me and told me that he is proud and they are too. Sometimes the pressure just feels like the heaviest weight, and sometimes someone comes along and helps hold it up so you can breath.
Valse Réminiscence 1:12:14
Once Upon a Time 1:16:32
Why does it always look and sound pretty at the beginning and then boom gone like a though before bed
// All Music Composed By Pianza //
Image credit: @sontungst on Instagram
cool to be alone and found this playlist
Listen to my NEW album “Winds of Tomorrow”:
https://open.spotify.com/album/1PnFlsLNnqG8fxOxiWUiKy?si=WSpIGwHTRxWK0gj2MOwsEQ
isso menda tranquilidade 🍂
STREAM MY MUSIC:
🎧 Spotify ► https://open.spotify.com/artist/2ioaxhHZKJJtmcsF68KQT5?si=tQSqf3fsT_Oh4QZ52bOfxQ
just so tired....🙁
Apple Music ► https://music.apple.com/ca/artist/pianza/1705500274
Amazon Music: https://www.amazon.com/music/player/artists/B0CH4H1R8D/pianza
Days go by where I wish I had a mother who cared about me. All that I am left with is trauma and bad memories of how things were between us. I am struggling with things in life my father could never understand. I am still trying to break free from the wounds on my heart she inflicted. All I wanted was to be my mother's daughter. All I wanted was for her to see me as I am. To care. Now all there is is silence. No texts no calls. No happy birthday. It's almost as if she is just a nightmare.
Deezer: https://www.deezer.com/en/artist/228330725
Tidal: https://listen.tidal.com/artist/41768911
Nothing are happen, just feel empty, sad, and i don't even know what the fuckin happen to me... God i'm tired🙂
Sheet Music ► https://patreon.com/user?u=76490808
#piano #classicalmusic #composer #darkacademia #waltzpiano #darkpianomusic #pianoplaylist
I just want to cry once but physically I can't 😣
More User Perspectives
He broke up with me. It was completely amicable. He realized that long distance isn't enough, he needs physical affection. He also realized that he needs to work on himself before he commits to a relationship. And the worst part? I was just so proud that he was finally advocating for himself. And it just made me love him more.
@phoenixcoffee9343I want my fictional husband to be real because he’s the only partner that truly cares for me and loves me 😭😭😭🐺💀
@talkingfez1265My son is gone. He was 7 months old with a twin sister and an older sister. It's been a few months and I'm expected to just keep going but every day and all night I'm trapped under it. I have his ashes but he's not here. I was with him every single day of his life, even the 2 months he was in the hospital fighting cancer. It wasn't the cancer that took him, it was a cold. So I can't even be mad at the cancer. I wanted to be mad at the chemo, I wanted to hate it so much. But I know it was helping him so quickly and he was doing so good compared to the start of his fight so I couldn't bring myself to be mad at that either. The day he died he was supposed to get some more scans to see if he was ready for surgery to have the tumor removed. Everything feels fake now. Like I didn't even go through all that with him. But he was REAL. He was my baby boy, my incredible stubborn little rebel. I did lose him. He was just old enough to try baby food and I lost him forever.
I'm not religious.... But I swear I noticed Hermes calling to make sure I knew he was helping the doctors in his last couple weeks and that he would take him to a colorful afterlife with music and dancing
Yup I use this while reading a book that almost seems to be like me
@marymar9183What i feel is everyday i wake up knowing ive grown to be a memory or an image people hate.. i wake up everyday feeling no matter where i am i will never get that sense of being home... i have christ and that is all i have other than this empty faded world that changed so much... stay humble and kind and never take time for granted, live so that you may see the sun before it rises and praise the lord for all his wonders, and remember tomorrow is never promised✝️
@MR.PRODUCER_GUIf you’re reading this, please consider it a warm, silent hug. Life can be heavy sometimes, so I just want to wish you unexpected joy, deep rest, and the comfort of knowing you are loved. Have a beautiful day ahead. 🌿
@chapellightpiano047وينكم طلاب 2027
@عبوسيالسيد-ج3ثWhat is there to life..?
Than the feeling of self and quiet?
My silence is his happiest moment. Rather than fixing what is wrong.he just use this time to do what he want
@phine_applelicious3924Go wherever you wanna go have some good time, listen music, and do whatever makes me feel happy but don't ask anyone from now, don't expect anything just don't hurt yourself with your own expectattions
@ultimatehindi01My boyfriend just broke up with me a few hours ago. I really thought he was the one. And tomorrow night I play a show with my band in front of over 100 people. I'm scared and hurt. Why do people change so fast? I really loved him. I don't think I can get on stage tomorrow
@justapunk-m4iI feel strange about my own feelings, when I stand in a crowd, I suddenly glance at the people walking around and realize that everyone is busy with activities to survive, they keep living the same thing with their emotions fluctuating, and they call all of it "LIFE" but strangely, I am too aware of their lives and the life I live, so much so that I don't want to be like them, I don't want to follow the flow of life like them, so suddenly my heart feels a very strange loneliness, even though I want to be different from them, I can't, so I can only live like them who are unaware while I am aware of everything, to the point that I don't even know if I'm bored or used to it...
@AzQiart_20I see this video and almost didn't click on it, but something shifted, maybe its the thumbnail.
This reminds me that I am truly alone for all relationships I have are temporary and I'm the only one who can be there from beginning to end. I am my own story, I am my own book. If this life is temporary why do people procrastinate. Could be the environment could be past history. But why do people hold themselves down or back every single walk moment just because they had a bad day or week or year,heck even multiple years.
Not saying to get over trauma,not saying it doesn't affect you.. simply why does someone put off their own thoughts and ideas like you made that idea up for a reason. Follow though with it, And remember your only human, you overestimate what you can get done in a day but underestimate what you can get done in a year.
This came to me at 11 pm :) live learn and laugh,. Live a life so full of experience and passion that you can die peacefully when death comes. Tomorrow isn't promised. ❤
Why does Cloud 707 sounded painful? @20:31
@mssnight-x3bso calming, love it.
@knightofthenorthwatchIf anyone is reading this I wish you a long life and a beautiful family I hope no one hurts you I may never meet you but life is beautiful ❤
@LoveChillVibes55waw
@sintogendeng-q1o7kI want something...this loneliness is so ancient..I thought hope was enough...it wasn't...I'm old and tired now...
@jixie_93i dont have anything poetic to say just : you are wonderful...🥰
@juniaabidrogers7205Little things are piling up. I’m watching my favorite friendship (9 years, ten in about two months) crumble in real time.
She doesn’t try anymore, and he’s too busy. Him I could maybe understand but the time he does have he spends it with her, because it’s more convenient..? I don’t know anymore.
Today I ‘caught’ them playing a stupid Roblox game I wanted to play together. Without me ofcourse; I didn’t get a call, text nothin’. And on top of that today was the day she was suppose to come over so we could start ok a summer project we want to do.
She DIDNT come over, they DIDNT invite me, and I’m just so SO tired.
I knew I’d become the third wheel of THEIR friendship, that started about three years ago, but it’s what I thought I’d grown to accept is starting to hurt again.
I don’t know what hurts the most anymore, it’s all emotional pain but I can’t bring myself to pretend to be strong. I know myself, and I know I’ll forget all the pain the second they pay me any amount of attention, because I’m like a stupid, overly excited puppy with the people I love… God I wish I wasn’t
Its just amazing day!!
I wrote a story today where a boy works at a peaceful convenient store. This particular Store is peaceful bcz manager is our 'Pianza'
🤍💆♂️
Changes for better.
@LibiaRobins111I found out last week that he cheated two years ago, we’re been together since 2021 and idk what to do left him?, or stay?.., know he changed alot, like a new person but i just can forget what i saw..
@DINAAkarzanHey you. Yes you. random person that I will never meet. I truly hope that you will find happiness in life. Today is going to be a great day ❤
@TheNightWeMet88It's 2 AM, I'm at my terrace. Feeling the wind as it makes my hair go in air.. staring at sky with empty heart and eyes full of emotions. To be honest I don't even know what I'm feeling. I'm just there questioning my entire existence, my choices and looking for answers in the dark clouds which hovers around me like sadness and all bad emotions humankind ever known.
@chaospartner....
Regrets regrets and regrets
I dumped him. Not because he cheated, not because he was a jerk. I love him. I have fought very very hard for us. I fought my trauma for a future with him. I worried for his health, for his wellbeing, for his happiness. I did everything I could to make him feel loved. I even doubted myself countless times wondering if I was giving him enough.
And he still doubts his heart towards me. He still lacks the faith in himself to love me. He doesn’t want to break up because he thinks someone else wouldn’t love him, not because he loves me.
I also had a time when I doubted myself and my heart. But i overcame it after dating for 2 years. I started to love myself. I started to believe in him and in me. I started to believe in our happiness. But he couldn’t do that even when he had 2 years.
So i left. When it comes to that, all i could do in respect to me and my effort was to break up. Because why would I keep trying and giving him my everything for him to doubt whether he loves me?
Why would I imagine a wedding and a future home with him, if he can’t even trust our present?
No break up songs can explain what I feel.
I feel torn, but I have no regrets. I did all I could and my best. But it still wasn’t enough for him. And I still love him. But he already changed to “I loved you”. He already put it in past tense.
You lied. No one who truly loves could ever turn such a feeling into past in 3 hours. You didn’t love me. You loved being loved by me. You loved the comfort i gave, but not the discomfort.
I dumped him. But it still feels like a knife was thrown in my heart.
And a part of me wishes that he comes back to me. That he begs to not lose me. That he says he still loves me. That he says he was stupid and he wants me back. I wanted him to be my future, my person, my love.
I just hope someone can find it easy to love me. As much as I find it easy to love others.
I think I'm a terrible person. I treat my mom very bad and can't stop myself from doing this. I probably will end my life when I will turn 18.
@zaVarnik_ruHarikulade. İnsanlardan uzakta ama insanlığın özlemini duyanların tercümanı olmuş bu müzik
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